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a family of 3
Sunday, January 13, 2008

so my sister is going to doha to work. for 3 years.
hm. i don't know how to feel about it. haha she's leaving 15 feb.

my brother's coming back soon for cny..
he's leaving 16 feb.

haha it occurred to me none of them are going to be there for me when i receive my alvl results. and i don't know if that's good or bad. argh. and shes going for 3 years which means she's probably gna miss out on a large part of my uni life (if i even get in) like how my brother missed out my entire jc life... i'm thinking he'd probably be quite a good person to have at home to complain to.... since my sister was always so occupied with her own life. haha.
there is a large possibility he won't be coming back anymore even after he grads in july and now that my sis is not ard anymore, i don't think we might be going over for his graduation. that really sucks.
so now there's only 3 people at home...
it also occurred to me both of them might be missing my birthdaysssss. HAI.

honestly, i'm trying not to imagine what life would be like..
it was good to have people occupy me when i was nervous and make noise when i was feeling lonely.
i just hope my brother doesn't stay in aussie i guess.
but i don't have a good feeling abt that. hai...... and of course im not gna persuade him otherwise if he decides to stay.. the house will be so empty :(
and my parents are getting old. oh god this REALLY sucks.

i know how i'm feeling right now, i'm feeling like how i felt few days after stepping down from guides, few days before the last day of school in sec four, that day 1st 3 months ended, last day of alvls.
like if i stopped and let myself go i could sit and cry forever.

12:48 PM